physicaly..
hai, you have many people to be with..surrounds you, and yeah your not alone..
but within your heart you feel there is something missing..
all your life you been searching.. and searching, and one day you felt you found her..
but knowing that its wrong to love her whatever you do..its just wrong..
and the hardes part is you know she doesnt love u..
but instead treats you as a brother..
and now that she is not by you side
even how loud you cry, shout..
you know your words has no chance to reach her..
and now you are again..
alone in the dark thinking of a way to forget your feelings..
..wishing for you to be loved..
because you are tired loving and not being loved back,,
all your life this always happens..
and the only things that remains are the memories you have with her being by your side..
the moments you are laughing, smiling with each other and the moments you want to stop the time to be forever looking at her...
i realy want to be with her again..
its realy hard to forget about someone you really love,,
but in the end you realized..what is love?
am i doing the right thing when loving someone?
guess i dont really know,
because i realy dont know how it feels to be loved, so how can i know if im realy doing the right thing?..
it is much convinient to die, instead of living and having this burden this hard to carry feeling inside your heart..
i really dont want to be alone
i want to be loved by her..
by : Kiseki
Kiseki post this to Friendster bulletin..
I know his thoughts..
I've felt this before..
Don't worry Kiseki you'll overcome this feelings later on..