Septenber 12 2008

hmmmmmmm....

i feel dismay with my life just that day.. 12 of September
its like a dooms day for me..
i came to his place to give him something from me..
just his favorites (cheetos) but i gave him a gatorade instead of Rani..
but we shouldnt meet that day i mean its just accidentally..
that day i want to meet his friend to give him the things to Naruto but he make me wait for more than an hour..
and when im standing at the corner of the street, near to Lee's house..
waiting for his friend to come..
i saw a people coming near to mine, and they spread in different directions then three people coming nearer to me i saw one tall guy im confident that this guy isnt Lee coz he supposed to have a work until 12 midnight coz its Ramadan in this country and he's working at the mall they are extended up to 2:00 am.
But im wrong when i saw his chuck taylor's snickers i know that guy is Lee..
I call him on the street and he looked back for the 2nd time i call his name..
its Lee i am very happy that time coz for so long i haven't seen him..
and i come with them in his friends house coz they will celebrate his friends birthday..
i come with them and chat and we ate..
they drink alcohol ofcoarse filipinos love to celebrate their b-days with these its incomplete w/o this thing..
after the gatherings i want to go home.. coz i found out on Lee's mobile that he's texting another girl, but for two weeks he didnt text me even a single one..
He ask me if i love him..
I told him that i'll not come to his place if i dont..
i miss him so much and i love him more now..
I ask him back the same question and he told that He do love me and he miss me..
The gathering ends at 3:00 am, Lee and I went to his house to have some sleep ofcoarse i dont want to, coz this is the first time that he's family will saw me but he hold my hand tightly what else can i do..
we already at his bed and we talked things about us..
he told me that he love me but he also love his daughter and the mom too..
its the most hurtfull thoughts from him..
I ask him when he realized that he love the mom he tell me since they went back to our country..
It hurts my feelings so much that i want to be gone that time..
I can't think well and the tears flows in my eyes..
he cried too.. He tell me that if i didnt do the things ive done when we've met before in jumeirah..
i know that day i hurt him so much.. i tell him my sorry..
I'm rude at him that day.. (pinagsisisihan ko tlga yung ngawa koh.. sobra) but its to late..
i've done it already.. i cant turn back the time.. if only i can.. if only...
He easily slept after he cried and maybe because of the work too, he's tired..
when its 4:30 am i kissed him goodbye while he's sleeping..
the last kiss..
the last night..
goodbye my love..
for the last time...
goodbye..
my one and only first love..

-=lee_ann=-

I wanna Grow Old With You

Adam Sandler

I wanna Grow Old With You

I wanna make you smile

Whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad

All i wanna do, is grow old with you

I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks

So, it could be so nice growing old with you,....

I'll miss you

Kiss you

Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you

Feed you

Even let you hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink

Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink

Oh I could be the man that grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you.

Crazy For You (SpongeCola)

Crazy For You

Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers making the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one
I see you through the smokey air
Can't you feel the weight of my stare
You're so close but still a world away
What I'm dying to say, is that

Chorus:

I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you, crazy for you


Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Eye to eye we need no words at all
Slowly now we begin to move
Every breath I'm deeper into you
Soon we two are standing still in time
If you read my mind, you'll see

(chorus)

It's all brand new, I'm crazy for you
And you know it's true I'm crazy, crazy for you

-----

from now on i will tell what is rili on my mind,i will show what i rili want and i will tell and show my feelings..i will continue this msg i dont care if no one could read this..i juz want to express my feelingss..i know no one will read this..for me this is my salvation of LOVE,HURT and beeing BROKEN..i'll continue to write until i lost my LOVE for this goofy guy.. (i don't want to)Hoping that he'll come back.. (he came back at me already ; p )

-=heartlessgodess=-

the more I SEE HIM the more IM LOVING HIM

the more I SEE HIM the more IM LOVING HIM



i have wait for him so long..
i dont care about time i spent on waiting..
this is the firts and hopefully the last time i will wait for him..
today the biggest odd will be gone..
i am so happy and i cant wait to see him more each day..
i love him thats why i waited for him,
i thought before that waiting is for the anime story only hahaha... silly me..
he made me wait for months, i hope our love will last..
because if not all of the sacrifices will be just useless..
i loved him in the past,
i'm loving him today
and i will love him more in the days,months & years to come..
i cant control my feelings..
i cant control my emotions..
and ofcourse the love that is flowing inside my veins for him..
im hoping this love will last forever..
this is my way of loving him..
this is the first time i love the guy the most me..
i dont know why..
maybe he's different..
maybe he's the man of my dreams..
maybe he's the one..
the one that im waiting for so long..
the one who will understand me..
who will accept me for who i am..
who will protect me..
who will protect my feelings for beeing broken..
who will guide me..
who will love me truthfully and honestly..
the person that will be by my side until my last breath..
i hope..
because if not..
i will be broken..
broken in to pieces, my feelings,love and emotions..

i am so crazy inlove with this guy..
i want to see him now..
i am so excited just to know i can see him from now on..
i want to see his smile..
i want see the blink of his eyes..
i want to see the way he stare at me..
i want to see the way he laugh..
i want to hear his voice..
i want to feel his embrace..
i want to feel his kiss..
heheheheh...
i miss him so..... much!
i can't wait to see him!!!!
(^-^)



-----from now on i will tell what is rili on my mind,i will show what i rili want and i will tell and show my feelings..i will continue this msg i dont care if no one could read this..i juz want to express my feelingss..i know no one will read this..for me this is my salvation of LOVE,HURT and beeing BROKEN..i'll continue to write until i lost my LOVE for this goofy guy..Hoping that he'll come back.. (he came back already! ;p )

-=heartlessgodess=-

Top 10 Things about My Naruto (Leebert)

Top Ten Things about My Kisses/Naruto/Leebert


1. He loves anime! Especially Naruto (^-^) *kagebunshin technic!* (date bayoh?!?)




2. He also loves movies! About wars, soldiers and movies that has a connection in history/documentary.
Like War of the Worlds?!? wahaha! juz kiddin!
Actually about Hitler, World War Two. He knows so much about history, is he a reincarnated? (--,)



3. He freaking like the BEATLES! (hehehe, its cool yah know!) "Hey Jude" is his favorite song from them.



4. He loves sports.. He's a basketball player here in Dubai! (class B player) He's a perimeter man!



5. Yah know his favorite snack?! Cheetos syempre!!! (--,) and Rani.. hehe pati commercial netoh like nya..



6. He knows how to play guitar and he sings well too! (kaka inlove!)
(he used to play bass)



7.He like spicy food (whooo.. ahh XD) Any food actually hehehe but most of them are spicy.




8.He spend his free time on playing PSP or PS2 waaahhhh..... I think he's addicted to it.. (--,)




9.He has a beautiful daughter named KC.. (^_^) She'll be 1 yr this coming September.




10. Top of them! He really really really loves "ME" hehe.. Yez.. ME!
He loves me so much as well as I love him.. (dont argue w/ me! DAMN!)

Passenger Seat (Stephen Speaks)

Stephen Speaks

Passenger Seat

I look at her and have to smile

As we go driving for a while

Looking nowhere in the open window of my car

And as we go the traffic lights

Watch them glimmer in her eyes

In the darkness of the evening

And I've got all that I need

Right here in the passenger seat

Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road

Knowing that she's inches from me

We stop to get something to drink

My mind pounds and I can't think

Scared to death to say I love her

Then a moon peeks from the clouds

Hear my heart that beats so loud

Try to tell her simply

That I've got all that

I need Right here in the passenger seat

Oh I can't keep my eyes on the road

Knowing that she's inches from me

Oh and I've got all that I need

Right here in the passenger seat

Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road

Knowing that she's inches from me

Oh and I know this love grow

Oh I've got all that I need

Right here in the passenger seat

Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road

Knowing that she's inches from me

And I've got all that I need

Right here in the passenger seat

Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road

Knowing that she's inches from me

And I've got all that I need

Right here in the passenger seat

Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road

Knowing that she's inches from me

And I've got all that I need

Right here in the passenger seat

"I really love this song.."

-=heartLess_GoddesS=-

to be loved? or to love?

physicaly..

hai, you have many people to be with..surrounds you, and yeah your not alone..

but within your heart you feel there is something missing..

all your life you been searching.. and searching, and one day you felt you found her..

but knowing that its wrong to love her whatever you do..its just wrong..

and the hardes part is you know she doesnt love u..

but instead treats you as a brother..

and now that she is not by you side

even how loud you cry, shout..

you know your words has no chance to reach her..

and now you are again..

alone in the dark thinking of a way to forget your feelings..

..wishing for you to be loved..

because you are tired loving and not being loved back,,

all your life this always happens..

and the only things that remains are the memories you have with her being by your side..

the moments you are laughing, smiling with each other and the moments you want to stop the time to be forever looking at her...

i realy want to be with her again..

its realy hard to forget about someone you really love,,

but in the end you realized..what is love?

am i doing the right thing when loving someone?

guess i dont really know,

because i realy dont know how it feels to be loved, so how can i know if im realy doing the right thing?..

it is much convinient to die, instead of living and having this burden this hard to carry feeling inside your heart..

i really dont want to be alone

i want to be loved by her..

by : Kiseki

Kiseki post this to Friendster bulletin..

I know his thoughts..

I've felt this before..

Don't worry Kiseki you'll overcome this feelings later on..

Phone Calls

After the Second Meeting the phone calls started, its either he's calling me or I call him..
nwei we are using the hotel's phone and we got used to it.. hehehe..
Evryday n kame nag-uusap, kwentuhan and evrything, grbe parang di kame nauubusan ng kwento araw2..
we always talked about anime ofcoarse we both like Naruto!
Thats why Naruto became his nickname.. hehehe..
And I rili love the character of Hinata, I always say byakugan! (^-^)
wahahahaha.. My sister (jhing) get angry when I do that..
But i like it.. hehehe...
And take note!
At day we always having a conversation through phone, and at night!
We always make tambay in the front of their room w/c is under the tree all of the gangs sit there evrynyt..
We also took dinner there, salosalo kami..
And we chat whole night or go to the beach, juz walking distance or the boardwalk..
And when it is dawn already (madaling araw na) we go to our room and sleep but..
Me and Naruto stays to have chat till the suns comes out..
hehehehe... and he always singing me a song, anysong.. RnB, OPM, Alternative & Pinoy Bands Songs..
He also knows how to play guitar!
grbe.. I rili love it.. when he do the guitar and sing me a song..
hai.... I miz that! (^-^)
And when we both want to get some sleep he will walk me to my room and we say goodnight and ... hep! walang kis noh! wahehehehe.. bawal poh.. (--,)
and after that im thinking about him before i go to sleep..
and by tommorow morning he's my wake up call...
he always call me to wake me up, superb! and then we chat again through phone and we stop to have breaklunch.. (breakfast & lunch) coz we get up late..
about 11 or 12 mid-day.. hehehehe..
after we eat, we chat again.. the guys always shouting, lowbat n yung phone!
hehehe... charge muna..
and we stop the conversation coz we both need to take a bath..
we actually like to talk about movies and anime and there was time that we both watching the same movie in the hotels room, ofcoarse same channel of the tv..
that is Brothers Grimm and the other one.. I dont remember the title.. but its war..
oh! Behind Enemy Lines! yun! (tama bah??) (^-^)
heheheh...
and after we took a bath we go out and have dinner then tambay uleth then sleep then phonecalls..
Thats my daily routine in kish.. hehehe..
And the day came that my sister jhing need to go back to Dubai..
She doesnt want but what we can do?! The Company needs her..
And shes gone..
On the night she went to the airport to be a chance passenger, hehehe..
She got back coz there are too many of them..
But then shes flight is in the morning..
So shes rili gone by 4 am.. So sad.. (T-T)
After she got inside the coaster we went to the seashore to watch the sunrise..
And that dawn also Naruto and Hinata start to have a relationship..
Opoh kami na.. (^-^)
That was June 02, 2008 mornin..
he ask me to be his GF and I said yes..
My mind says why not! I like this guy so much..
My heart tells me, be true to yourself.. Say yez..
Thats how we started..
New born relationship w/ the help of anime and movies..
W/ the help of exit..
W/ the help of Kish Island, I found him..
The picture of my dream guy..
Leebert..

Hey Jude (The Beatles) Lee's Favorite

The Beatles

Hey Jude

Hey Jude, don't make it bad.

Take a sad song and make it better.

Remember to let her into your heart,

Then you can start to make it better.

Hey Jude, don't be afraid.

You were made to go out and get her.

The minute you let her under your skin,

Then you begin to make it better.

And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain,

Don't carry the world upon your shoulders.

For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool

By making his world a little colder.

Hey Jude, don't let me down.

You have found her, now go and get her.

Remember to let her into your heart,

Then you can start to make it better.

So let it out and let it in, hey Jude, begin,

You're waiting for someone to perform with.

And don't you know that it's just you, hey Jude, you'll do,

The movement you need is on your shoulder.

Hey Jude, don't make it bad.

Take a sad song and make it better.

Remember to let her under your skin,

Then you'll begin to make it

Better better better better better better, oh.

Na na na, na na na na, na na na, hey Jude...

-=diosa=-

Cheetos! (^-^)

your askin why i entitled this post cheetos??
juz read this dont argue w/ me!.. (^-^)
hehehehe..
this post is titled cheetos bcoz of cheetos!
the snack that is so crunchy and loaded w/ supah cheese..
hai.. ilove this snack you know why?
coz Leebert love this, i ate this snack yesterday nyt, remember the things that Lee want?
Im adopting things that he wanted..
but for being fair cheetos is good men..
we bought some chichiria last nyt and then i accidentally saw this cheetos..
i remember that Leebert love this so i buy it and start eating it going back home.
and i got homed juz after i take shower and have my night routine..
he text me and try to call me, hes using his friends no. duh?!?!
wala xang phone pla and block and simcard nya!
what a guy.. sabi nga nya kapag kinakantot k nga namn ng kamalasan.. (--,)
wahahaha.. he always say that when we were in kish..
actually for me swerte namn!!
kasi evryday ko syang iniisip and suddenly nagparamdam n sya!



Cheetos (JOKE)
There's this guy and one day, when he pissing, he notices that his penis is orange. He goes, "What the hell?" and he went to the doctor the next day. "Doc, why's my penis orange?" he asks. The doctor goes, "Hmm. Never seen anything like it. Here, take a couple of these pills and come back here tomorrow." So the guy takes the pills back home and uses it that night. The next day, he goes back to the doctor and the stuff doesn't do anything. So, the doctor gives him some stronger stuff and tells him to come back the next day. He takes it home and the next day, his penis is still orange. He goes back to the doctor and he gives him the strongest stuff they have. You know, he'll be out for twelve hours and he can't eat or drink anything during that time, etc. He comes back a couple days later and his penis is still orange. The doctor goes, "Damn. What's going on? What kind of sex have you been having?" The guy goes, "Well, actually, I haven't gotten any in a long time." So the doctor thinks a little bit and asks, "Well, what'd you do last night?" The guy says, "Um, I was looking at some pornos and eating some Cheetoes."

Second Meeting

after the first meet nasundan yun but..
we didnt spoke to each other on the first time..
i mean not till we sat together..
suplado nga sya..
promise..
hehehe..
but kita ko s eyes nya n type nya me..
(^-^) hehe LAKAS ko noh??
totoo yun!!
i know coz he stare at me always..
hehe.. its ok for me coz i like him also..
pano nga ba nagkaron ng second meeting??
hmmm...
ah!! s pagka alala koh..
they call on our room and nagyaya ng fishing..
so we call them and answer yes for they fishing kuno!
hehe..
nagpunta n uleth kame s boardwalk and we sat in the bench..
at first di nya me muna kinusap ang kausap nya yung mga friend ko, sila ate jhing, ate dess..
me and grace w/ ate virgin and carlo, kuya thor and others are fishing just nearby..
hehe..
pag nalala ko yung first fishing area namin nakakatawa kasi tambayan lang pala yun...
pero madaming isda!
and i sat beside him dun din kasi ang bag ko, try to find my CP and we started to talk w/ other things and then suddenly are topic became bands.. and then anime!
wow! grbe im so happy kasi i find some one who is interested also on anime at the first time here in kish and also first time in dubai! s tagal tagal ko n nasa dubai now lang me nakatagpo ng kapareho ko ng hilig..
im so happy and very gratefull cos i found someone like me..
(^-^)
we are so compatible.. and then next na usapan n namin nakatayo n kame s fishing area while fishing yung mga kasama namin kaming 2 naman busy s pag uusap bout anime!
and the topic go on until its change to history, im a good listener so i listened to him well..
im also interested to the things that i dont know coz from the person that im talking w/ i can gain knowledge and i also starting to know him better thats my way to know someone i like..
i let him talk..
and after the chatting and fishing..
magkayayan n mag swimming..
wow!
sarap ng tubig dun!
all gurls go to swimming and also we took some pictures..
sarap kasama ng buong tropa...
masaya.. makulit.. magulo..
nga pala may niluto kami (^-^)
dalawang isda!
hehe nahuli nila!
luto ang guys while gurls are swimming..
kainis nga lang di sya nag swim kasi naka pants sya..
but still andun sya till the end..
hes handsome for me that night.. hes tall and we are so compatible..
the things we like and also our hobbies..
that night din nya kinuwento bout his life bout his past..
and his civil status..
he had a child but not married the gurl dont want to marry him and sya din..
i like him that night very much!
im starting to fall for him..
that night..

-----from now on i will tell what is rili on my mind,i will show what i rili want and i will tell and show my feelings..
i will continue this msg i dont care if no one could read this..
i juz want to express my feelingss..i know no one will read this..
for me this is my salvation of LOVE,HURT and beeing BROKEN..
i'll continue to write until i lost my LOVE for this goofy guy..
Hoping that he'll come back..

-=heartlessgodess=-

Starting to learn Guitar

Making love out of nothing at all (G,Em,C,D-sus)
hehehe..
last nyt i am rili interested to that song so i want to learn how to play it on guitar..
it is not easy for me of coarse, i play base it is much more easy.. (^-^) juz four strings unlike acoustic guitar!
wheewww!!! at least i learn the song but im not yet learning the refrain.. (^-^) hehe it has different chords men!!
but i want to learn the whole song, this is my second time i want to learn a song in the guitar, but! this is my first time to pursue like this and 1st time ko talagang natuto.. pati pag stram..
natatawa talaga ako kasi ngayon lang ako nagkaganito...
gusto kong gawin ang mga kaya nyang gawin,
gusto kong matuto ang mga alam nya,
gusto kong pumasok s mundo nya..
gusto kong makita, maramdaman, maranasan, matuto ang mundo nyang ginagalawan..
gusto kong alamin yung mga alam nya..
sobra..
sobra sobrang pagmamahal n nararamdaman koh..
hes gone but still i want him to be w/ me, no...
i want him to be w/ my world

i want to be like him,
thats why im learning how to be like him
so even his not w/ me..
his personality will be w/ me..
im starting to adopt his likings..
so he will be part of me forever..
till death..
so hard to erased him in my heart
so instead im embracing him..
its a lot more easier..
hes the first guy im inlove w/..
this is my first time im doing this for a guy..
i love him more than evrything..
more than myself now..
more than every one..


-----from now on i will tell what is rili on my mind,i will show what i rili want and i will tell and show my feelings..i will continue this msg i dont care if no one could read this..i juz want to express my feelingss..i know no one will read this..for me this is my salvation of LOVE,HURT and beeing BROKEN..i'll continue to write until i lost my LOVE for this goofy guy..Hoping that he'll come back..

-=heartlessgodess=-

Making Love Out Of Nothing At All

Air SupplyMaking Love Out Of Nothing At All

I know just how to whisper
And I know just how to cry
I know just where to find the answers
And I know just how to lie
I know just how to fake it
And I know just how to scheme
I know just when to face the truth
And then I know just when to dream

And I know just where to touch you
And I know just what to prove
know when to pull you closer
And I know when to let you loose
And I know the night is fading
And I know the time's gonna fly
And I'm never gonna tell you
Everything I gotta tell you
But I know I gotta give it a try

And I know the roads to riches
And I know the ways to fame
I know all the rules
And I know how to break 'em
And I always know the name of the game

But I don't know how to leave you
And I'll never let you fall
And I don't know how you do it
Making love out of nothing at all

Out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
Out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
Out of nothing at all,
Making love out of nothing at all

Everytime I see you all the rays of the sun
Are streaming through the waves in your hair
And every star in the sky is taking aim at your eyes
Like a spotlight

The beating of my heart is a drum and it's lost
And it's looking for a rhythm like you
You can take the darkness from the pit of the night
And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright

I've gotta follow it 'cause everything I know
Well it's nothing till I give it to you

I can make the runner stumble
I can make the final block
I can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle
I can make all the stadiums rock
I can make tonight forever
Or I can make it disappear by the dawn
I can make every promise that has ever been made
I can make all your demons be gone

But I'm never gonna make it without you
Do you really want to see me crawl
And I'm never gonna make it like you do
Making love out of nothing at all

Out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
Out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
Out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
Out of nothing at all

-----from now on i will tell what is rili on my mind,i will show what i rili want and i will tell and show my feelings..i will continue this msg i dont care if no one could read this..i juz want to express my feelingss..i know no one will read this..for me this is my salvation of LOVE,HURT and beeing BROKEN..i'll continue to write until i lost my LOVE for this goofy guy..Hoping that he'll come back..
-=heartlessgodess=-

LSS (last song syndrome)

i am rili in love w/ this guy..
know i know whats the feeling of beeing hurt, this is my first time that i am longing for someone..
i have bf but i miz this guy more than my bf.. (am i beeing rude??) no im not..
im just honestly saying what im feeling ryt now..
what is inside my heart..
tonight before i sleep (actualy i havent sleep much)i am repaetedly listening to the voice of this guy, i have
a recoerd of this song on my phone actualy its just a line or phrase in a song but i keep on listening to it until my phone runs out of battery..
maybe you know this song..
(making love out of nothing at all?? by air supply)
this is the last song that he sang for me..
i mean i remember..
he can play guitar w/c i rili love...
thats why i fall for him..
i love evrything about him..
the way he laughs..
the way he play the guitar..
the way he talks..
the way he make me laugh and make faces that is so pcute..
im smiling ryt now..
nalalako kasi lahat about s kanya..
he love sports also, i think he love it much more than i does..
i love the way he play basketball, it really fits to him cpz hes tall..
he's funny in a cute way..
hehehehe.. im still smiling when i remember..
hes always singing me a song even i dont know the song...
but he rili touched my heart when he's singing..
i loving him more because of that..
and im missing him more because of that also..
i hope he still love me..
until now before i sleep i keep on reading all the messages he sent me..
i save it all in my even the msgs while im in kish..
im reading it until my feel sleepy and until my eyes close, evrynyt im doing it..
i want to remember about him evrything..
evrything about him..
all of beeing him..

-----from now on i will tell what is rili on my mind,i will show what i rili want and i will tell and show my feelings..i will continue this msg i dont care if no one could read this..i juz want to express my feelingss..i know no one will read this..for me this is my salvation of LOVE,HURT and beeing BROKEN..i'll continue to write until i lost my LOVE for this goofy guy..Hoping that he'll come back..
-=heartlessgodess=-

sleepless night..

last night.. i cant sleep early i dont know why.. maybe because the memories of the past is hunting me.. its hurting me inside.. i dont want to cry, its my defenses.. if i cry all my feelings for this guy will be gone thats why i keep on holding him inside.. i dont want him to leave my heart..
i want him to stay inside even i got older and have grandchildren..
yesterday i went home afternoon for my breaktime i found my sisters camera.. its full of memories in kish island..

and the story of our naughtyness starts... (--,)
hehe.. i mean love. (its so corny, but its true)

at our room starting to get dress, coz tonight we will meet someone.. hes a guy and his name is JM.. this jm is tall guy w/ chinito eyes..and we are six in the group six girls coz only six girls allowed to stay in the Farabi 01 rooms..
we are waiting for our Visa and we also want to have fun untill our visa got there..
me and ate Virgin are still in the room, mabagal kasi kami gumayak hehe.. kaya naiwan kami nauna na mga kasama ko s labas they are waiting for us and suddenly i receive a phone call from JM hes going out w/ us.. i told him that we will wait for him outside the room.. so when we are already in dress we go out the room and go downstairs.. hintay kami s labas until a group of people are coming, i already saw this tall guy / chinito eyes and thin?? but not much..
i know JM is not thin coz we mwt bwfore but we didi not spoke to each other hes just sitting in front of me and my sisiter in the tour.. di ko kasi anaalam pag di ako interesado..
and the group of guys come closer to us nakatingin ako s matangkad na lalaki, so tall grbe.. then nung nsa harapan n namin sila tinanong ni ate virgin yung tall guy.. are you JM?? in confusion sumagot agad yung lalaki huh?? then yung kasama nila ang sumagot.. oo sya si JM..
kaya naman umlis nakami w/ this group of guys going to the shisha place! then ask ako ng ask if sya talaga si JM, im confuse ryt now! sobra so when we got there s venue i call JMs room and hes room mate told me n umlis n daw.. and my sisiter confirm n di sya si JM hehe.. but JM ang nickname nya.. kaya sya ay si JM din!! taz dumting n yung real JM he sat beside me and the conversation starts..
i dont know why but im staring at the second JM and hes staring back at me, haha hes pacute pah that nyt! taz nagkatitigan kami, matagal.. and he turned back his eyes.. (talo sya)ang cute pa mandin nya in way that most attractive , for me..
maybe i find him more attractive than the one whos sitting beside me..
i'll tell you his looks...(the second JM)
tall, super! lampas ng 6' ang height..
(i love his height! iniisip ko plng n yayakapin nya me and ang katapat ng face ko yung dibdib nya sarap ng gnung pakiramdam.. i feel protected...)
chinito w/c i rili like!
mukha xng korean, promis!
wow! and naka chuck taylor sya! + pogi points for me!
hehe i love chucks too! i have also!
naka white syang damit w/ colar..
and naka kulduroy n pants n baston..
lupet ng porma.. (for me)
we eat french fries and pizza and we took shisha..
but not me that nyt..
untill nagkayayaan n s beach!
s boardwalk..
nawala agag yung second JM hai.. gusto ko p mandin xang makilala but before that we took pictures w/ all the gangs.. hehe.. (^-^) nalala ko tinutukso ako ng 2nd JM dun daw me tumabi s real JM sabi ko bakit JM k din naman ahh??
and then umlis ako s grupo ng andun n kami s boardwalk, i look aroun the place and sumunod naman yung real JM w/ my bag.. and we talked anything and he find me weird, maybe bcoz i talked about death..
gnun tlga ako sinasabi ko nasa isip ko..
and then we got back to our room..
all of us.. im looking for the 2nd JM but hes gone..


-----from now on i will tell what is rili on my mind,i will show what i rili want and i will tell and show my feelings..i will continue this msg i dont care if no one could read this..i juz want to express my feelingss..i know no one will read this..for me this is my salvation of LOVE,HURT and beeing BROKEN..i'll continue to write until i lost my LOVE for this goofy guy..Hoping that he'll come back..
-=heartlessgodess=-

KISSES from Goddess

ewan koh bah..
hai...
kailangan kong ilabas toh..
its like my heart is going to burst inside if i didnt wrote this or tell this to anyone.. this will be my output for this feeling that is enclosed inside my heart..
before i cant tell if i rili love this guy, but the day pass evryday and i think that no i fell that im rili falling inlove w/ this guy..
hes so sweet andf thoughtfull and most of all hes so so so super lovable for me.. i think this is the first time i fall inlove this is rili true this is my first time to feel this emptyness inside this unusual me i dont rili care bout guys coz i know they will come and go. but this guy, this tall guy, rili got all of me, for the first time i saw him i rili dont want to be closed to him coz i know maybe, that time my defenses will be broke into pieces, coz the time that i saw him all of my likings and wanted from the guy was all in this guy.. tang-na talaga!! lahat ng weaknesses koh n spot nya! lahat ng gusto ko s lalaki nasa kanya.. i dont mind what his civil status.. all i know is we have the same fellings..
i saw him as a happy guy and started to talk to him, katawa nga 1st meet namin it was on the island of IRAN, named Kish Island.. for me it is the island of temptation..

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from now on i will tell what is rili on my mind, i will show what i rili want and i will tell and show my feelings.. i will continue this msg i dont care if no one could read this..

i juz want to express my feelingss..
i know no one will read this..
for me this is my salvation of LOVE,HURT and beeing BROKEN..
i'll continue to write until i lost my LOVE for this goofy guy..
Hoping that he'll come back..

-=heartlessgoddess=-